In the finale, Naomi Pierce gives him 1 much more chance to get out. But Kendall declines, citing his father’s appreciate for him. In the end, Kendall was trapped in the prison Logan created for him doomed to forever be a doormat or, much more tragically as it turns out, shape himself into an imitation of his father.
To get totally inside Kendall’s mindset in the finale it is beneficial to appear at the inspiration for the episode’s title. “This Is Not For Tears” comes from the John Berryman poem “Dream Song 29.” You can watch the poet himself execute the complete text right here, or study it for oneself beneath:
There sat down, after, a factor on Henry’s heart
só heavy, if he had a hundred years
& much more, & weeping, sleepless, in all them time
Henry could not make very good.
Begins once again constantly in Henry’s ears
the tiny cough someplace, an odour, a chime.
And there is one more factor he has in thoughts
like a grave Sienese face a thousand years
would fail to blur the nevertheless profiled reproach of. Ghastly,
with open eyes, he attends, blind.
All the bells say: as well late. This is not for tears
But never ever did Henry, as he believed he did,
finish anybody and hacks her physique up
and hide the pieces, exactly where they may possibly be identified.
He knows: he went more than everybody, & nobody’s missing.
Normally he reckons, in the dawn, them up.
No one is ever missing.
In the preface to the poetry collection The Dream Songs, Berryman wrote that these poems have been “essentially about an imaginary character (not the poet, not me) named Henry, a white American in early middle age. . .who has suffered an irreversible loss and talks about himself at times in the 1st individual, at times in the third, at times even in the second.”
The line that offers us the title of the episode centers especially on grief and is meant to echo William Wordsworth’s “Immortality Ode” which ends: “Thoughts that do frequently lie as well deep for tears.” For Berryman, the topic of his poem—so, the Kendall figure—is suffering from a guilt and grief beyond self-pity. The final portion of the poem sees the narrator assuring himself he didn’t basically murder anyone—that “nobody’s missing.” Or, as Logan place it in this episode to Kendall: “No genuine individual involved.” I take the use of this poem to imply that Kendall has absorbed his dad’s words entirely and forced himself to move beyond the guilt-ridden stage simply because, in the finish, the grief was receiving him nowhere. No genuine individual involved.